Hello Lovers, You probebly thinking im already in Romenia??!! Well im not.......... it got canceld again from monday to thursday. So that means im leaving tomorro. I am realy ready to go, i realy would like to tell you some good news, but i've been just realy sad. All i wanna do now is just GO away, i was rather dissapointed that monday got canceld but i gave me some time. Some time to think about last weeks, witch were kinna hard on me. Last weekend i was very emotional was crying my eyeballs out and even set off the alarm by accident in the house (Realy sorry Tigra, and Wim too......) and offcoures my lost My sweet lil Angel..... I have to do without Swingley and it sooo hard... Not only thinking about last weeks but also last years.... this house, i love this house. All of my friends were in it. Wheather i office or in Op room, the girls, here is were my friends were. So much happend in my life while i was working in this house.I met my best friend Flame here. I even ended up living here. Always wen i felt bad or had a bad weekend, i come in to this house and one way or the other it made me forget about it. It has its magical way of doing that to me. So it did help me true some sadness in the past. You just come in work hard talk to everyone always something going on, and if ya realy need someone to talk to you just went to your friends or even in office. This house was Alive.... I acctually realy realized it wen i came in yesterday. After a bad weekend i normally start my 10 hourshift on monday, now there was no shift for me to do and it left me lonely. Yesterday i came in to already pack my stuff for tomorro. Right away wen i enterd the building a peace and quietness came over me. Talked to the operator a bit, talked to Katja from office chatting to the guys from office, having dinner with the model on Welcome Desk.... this just does me good you know. Leaving the house yesterday, driving in the car it hit me that, that was the last time that house will give me a feeling like that and offcoures it left me sad again..... LOL Flashback of 5 years went thru me all the way back the Amsterdam house is gone ...... my house is gone...... Thankfully my house is just moving to an other country and i feel exited that i can come along a watch it get build up again. This way i can leave a lil bit of me... that would be nice cuz i realy do feel part if it. Im exited that i do have the possibility's to come along and bring this to a whole new other level. Unlike my collegees, all the dear Operators, Vannessa in office , Paticia the housemum, Siren, AquaBabe etc etc. Even the cleaners Riza and Nina... all part of the house. The guys in office will continu there jobs, but i will miss having them around. Tomas, Said, Tjun, Osman, Justin, Wim, Arjan, Ad, and all the other guys..... some have been here longer or just as long as me it will be weird. I will come and see all you guys wen im back, see how boring your new offices are without us girls around LOL. No more signs on your doors... No Models allouwed lol hehehehhehee I bet ya'll gonna miss us too. Bye Bye Amsterdam House............ See you in Romenia!!!!!

R.I.P. My dear sweet Angel Swingley!!!

13 years ago a Angel was send to me, cuz God/The Cosmos knew hard times was ahead of me. He came to me as a lil white AngelDoggy i called Swingley. He had a long and hard duty and he did it so well. He was there for me in those oh so hard times, he comfort me, cuddled me, he stud by me, cheered me up, understud me, never judged me, loved me unconditionaly. Now my lil Angel is tired and he tells me with those cute doggy eyes of him im ready to do it on my own now. Hi everyone, your Jacky (aka Melanie) is totally heardbroken my doggy is sick and he is slowly dieing. I went to the vet wensday cuz i wanned to make sure he is ok befor i leave. Everything seemed fine, but i let them take is blood to be sure, cuz i had a feeling. I had to wait and in the main while Claudia called me there was a change of plans and im leaving monday instead of today!!!! I think it was ment to be this way cuz wen i got the results of his blood it said something is realy wrong with my Swingley and there is no cure. The vet said if he starts eating and drinking again he will maybe stick around just alil while. So that means he was gonna die wen im in Romenia. But my lil Angel is tired and he doest wanna eat. He cant keep in his medicine inside and that means is will slowly die. He is my everything "Mijn Lieveling" he is the soul i have loved the most, he never abanded me and brought me so much joy, he does NOT deserve to die slowly and pass away without me being there for him. Today at 15.15 my lil Angel will leave me, to rest in peace and to be reminded as my resue im my times with tears, my only joy in live at some points of it. Now he will continu looking over me in Doggy heaven as my Guarding Angel. Goodbye my lil Gods gived of heaven, Thank you so much!!!!